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Bizarre job dream

May 2nd, 2007 (10:49 am)

Last night I dreamed that I was working at Akamai (which I am)...and still at Endeca (which, needless to say, I'm not). People at Endeca knew, but people at Akamai did not. I don't remember much detail, but I remember the emotional content. First was guilt for deceiving Akamai, combined with fear at being caught out—I remember that part of the fear was a (real) clause in my employment agreement that Akamai has exclusive use on my professional efforts. Then, when I decided I really had to stop, I felt a different fear: in real life, our bank account has been growing since I started at Akamai; in the dream, I "realized" that this was because I was getting two paychecks, and was afraid that, with just one paycheck, we'd be under water.

Sigh. Some people get to dream about sex and flying. What do I get? Fear and guilt.


Posted by: C. Virtue (cvirtue)
Posted at: May 2nd, 2007 05:59 pm (UTC)

That's what Pat calls an 'anxiety dream.' What you're anxious about isn't usually the topic of the dream -- maybe you remember I had them when I was a new mom, but they weren't always about the babies.

More specifically, it sounds very much like the dreams I have had (more than twice) which involved a scenario that we had moved, but suddenly I remembered that we still were paying rent/mortgage on our old place, and a lot of our stuff was still there. We'd have to get it all out, and I didn't know how or when, and we'd wasted a lot of money because we simply Forgot, and I didn't know where we'd put our stuff anyway, and How Could I Have Been So Stupid?

Fear and guilt, in other words.

So if you're anxious about something, let's chat tonight.

Posted by: Who, me? (metageek)
Posted at: May 2nd, 2007 06:00 pm (UTC)
I don't think so

It does sound similar, but I don't consciously know of anything I'm anxious about.

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Posted by: Who, me? (metageek)
Posted at: May 3rd, 2007 03:38 pm (UTC)
Re: Dreams

Probably not, since "professional" is Conveniently Undefined. Of course, it'd still be subject to my noncompete.

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